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I've would have written this as a status rather than an entire topic but couldn't be able to find out how to write a status anywhere on this website. I guess this is a vent of sorts. Recently I feel like I've just been unreasonably bitter towards some friends and what's going on in their lives. Seeing and hearing of their successes and events they plan where I'm just sitting back lazily without doing anything with my life. These are people I spent years with and known for so long throughout my life. Seeing them go about their lives and actually doing things just gives me this sick feeling in my chest and I just feel frustration for no clear reason. I should be happy that their actually progressing and doing things but I just feel bitterness. I think it's because I know that I myself aren't doing anything, being lazy, not making any effort to make any friends or do anything to help progress anything in my life. Maybe I just feel angry because they are actually doing something and living a normal life that I never really got a chance to experience due to my parents. These feelings are probably just my fault and I should try to do better. I should try to pull myself out of the depression and resent I feel and do something I will be proud of and help me into my life as an adult. But it's been so hard to feel anything other than lethargic. It's been hard to continue everyday as is. I just wake up everyday with the same feeling of disinterest and lack of motivation for anything. I've been loosing interest in a lot of things, even video games which I spent most of my time doing over so many other things. It's been hard to find any reason to get out of bed. I almost just want it all to stop, I don't have any interest and continuing with the rest of my life and I just want it to stop so I don't have to feel anything anymore. So all the present pain, past pain, and my mundane future will all cease. That's all I have to say for now. Sorry if this isn't allowed here. Sorry for the edgy post in general.

I just wanted to say I am incredibly sorry to anyone I have been rude to on teamspeak and discord as of late. I've just been in a bad state these days... I really can't take it anymore. Life is just coming at me with one thing after another... The minecraft server has been down for so long and I can't take it anymore guys.. All I wanna do is make MineBrothers lets play videos and crate openings for the boys and I can't do that without the server. It's really hard out here. I ask for your sympathy and forgiveness. P.S does anyone know how to setup a soundboard for discord?? With teamspeak being dead I haven't been able to listen to my Galaxy Goat Minecraft parodies.. That's been hard on me too. P.S again: #FreeSteven @lilbleed