Ok :( I just get excited because, kind of my whole life, I've never been "In charge" or "in control" of anything. I've never been a admin before. And when I DO get the opportunity, I'd sign it as fast as I can. And I'm not very patient. that's my reason I got carried away too fast. And sometimes when I would ask people if I could try being "boss"
They would come up with more than a hundred excuses/reasons why I can't. I makes me feel... You know unwelcome to the group. and it's the same when I asked a question in the server, everyone started talking about it.