I'd have to trust Vector here more than the other guy as he is an admin. We take suicide threats very seriously here at xG but there's not a lot we can do if you don't want us to help. And we aren't going to sit by while you harass our members and constantly make them feel bad and force this guilt upon them. If you feel suicidal get help, and not from some random strangers on a video game. There are tons of hotlines for you. But Vector did right, if you are unable to accept our help (what little we can give) and then you continue to guilt and antagonize our players. We're done with you.