It's about time that I finally let go of something that meant a lot to me for many years, nearly 5 to be exact. I joined xG way back when life had begun changing, I had just entered college in a new city as a freshman. xG somehow became a home to me where I had the chance to meet an unbelievable number of great people, many of which I became good friends with.
The first few months was tough in xG to be honest. I knew I wanted to move up to mod, eventually admin, and who knew... maybe even a division manager or division leader. I got stuck on moderator for a good amount of time, seeing people who joined after me rank up faster. That was fine though, I had made good friendships with most of them. Eventually had people who believed enough in me to get me promoted (Gkoo, darkwolf, poncher, etc). Taking that step from mod to admin was a huge accomplishment, it felt good to be making an impact on xG.
Life went on, classes continued, but I never once felt the urge to leave xG. I thought it was impossible to ever think that, I would spend 10 hours some days on jailbreak. I just want to say to those that were here a few years ago, thank you. Although I know some didn't get along too well with me, it still made it a great experience. A super quick shoutout to those who stood out among the rest for one reason or another: Gkoo, Darkwolf, Dr. Pepper, Cristo, Doug, Rabid, McNeal, etc. There literally are too many to name, and a good amount of time has passed so everyone isn't coming to mind. But if you were there between 2011-2014, I appreciate the company. This doesn't go to say that the current xG is any less exciting. Probably quite the opposite actually. Unfortunately you eventually lose interest in things, especially after pouring 1,000+ hours into a game in just a few years.
I was honored to get CL, shocked, but honored. It was an interesting idea, not sure I like how it ever turned out either but it gave more of a chance for opinions to be heard. It was no longer just a Co-Leader making the final decision. With that in mind, I also want to say thank you to those that I worked alongside with; I know I tended to argue a lot, but it truly was in the interest of the community.
So, one of you may be asking what happened to me... I simply moved on in life. I moved across the country for a job after I graduated and have spent about 55 hours a week at work. I still checked the forums nearly every day, I felt that I was obligated to do that at least. But getting online was tough, I work nights through the weekend, so anytime I got on the servers were dead. I kind of got thrown into inactivity, whether I wanted to be or not. It makes me sad to think I will no longer be able to lead and shape the community, but sometimes you have to let go of things that you love. In the end though I'm very happy where I am in life, and have a lot of things still to accomplish.
I still urge any of you to reach of to me with questions, needed advice, or just if you want to say hi. I doubt I can ever just let go of xG, it held such an important part in my life. I do wish you all the best of luck, and I hope to see xG grow.
This isn't a forever goodbye, not at all. I still wish to remain a member, and hell, if you all ever open up a special original xG member type of position I would be honored to get that too haha.
@Rhododendron - Thank you for all you do here. I really appreciate you making xG a place where people could come together and have a fucking blast for years.
Finally, I am not going to apologize to anyone here (I actually don't think anyone expects it as most people understood my bottom line), but wanted everyone I had arguments with understand that I was only being fair and consistent with you all. I actually learned a hell of a lot from doing that, and its made me successful in my professional life. If you take one thing away from this goodbye post, its that people all deserve a chance, but dont let yourself be persuaded to go easy on them because they butter you up. Rabid, thanks for all the frustrating nights I dealt with... seriously.. it helped me grow as a person. I will miss you. I will miss all of you.
Hidingmaster out. :cry: