I'm Finally Leaving.

[Charles 56]

Prepare for a long block of text. Will have TL;DR at end.

 

Disclaimer: Most of this is me venting, and has no real impact onto how to imrpove the community. I want to get this off of my back, and move on with my life.

 

Well, my time has come. It feels good to finally leave this community, mostly because I feel as if the 4 years I've been here haven't been the best in my life. Even with all the friendship's I've had with some people in this community, I feel like the negative impact of trolls & general toxicity of this place have altered my personality towards the more negative side of the spectrum. In BOTH real life, and on the internet.

 

Since I joined back in 2012, I've noticed that I've been on my computer for unrealistic, and unhealthy amounts of time. Mostly due to talking on TS3, playing CS:S, GMOD, or CS:GO on your servers. My grades have dropped, I've lost good IRL friends, and have just turned into a more negative and anti-social person due to this community.

 

You may be asking: Oh, how could an INTERNET GAMING COMMUNITY have this great of an impact on someones life?

Well, I was once an extremely enthusiastic, fun, and caring person before joining this toxic place. I loved talking, being outside, exercising, and enjoying life away from the computer. But now... now the only thing I look forward to is getting back on the PC to do stupid shit or even troll when I'm bored. And that's not who I want to be.

 

And with all these negatives, it still gets worse. I don't really enjoy the game like I used to in 2012. It used to be that I could REALLY enjoy JB or MG, and not have to worry about "some annoying kid" joining and ruining it for me. But "annoying kid" is most of these new members. But yet, I still force myself to talk to them, for a reason that I don't know. And it's really hindering my personality towards being a more hostile and unlikable person.

 

As far as the good things that I've experienced about this community, and I'm quite thankful for, is he friends/relationships I've developed with some of you. I've found myself still talking to, daily, people from 4 years ago. And to me, that's amazing! Great friends made over such a hostile place. WHO KNEW?

 

I'd also like to critique xG on my way out. I REALLY hate what the leadership has turned into, or what it's ever been. If you're a good friend with a DM+, you're basically guaranteed to get staff, or be able to help with the community more than someone who doesn't really talk to staff. I've also found that they can be cold, and "assholish" at times.

 

Getting alittle side tracked, but I've seen MANY times people get mod/admin just because they're friends with the DM/DL. And it's quite frankly the most ANNOYING thing to see when trying to get promoted. I don't want to call anyone out, but if you got promoted for not playing, and just being friends with a DM/DL, fuck off. That's the most bull shit thing I've ever seen. I REALLY suggest you work on eliminating this out of you're DM/DLs @Aegean @Rhododendron . As it could be a good thing to help improve this community.

 

I'm also not making maps exclusively for xG anymore. Any bugs/fixes should be fixed by @Lithium.

And as far as any maps that I port/make, you can follow my gamebanana if you really want to.

Hexx1 (Members) - GAMEBANANA

 

TL;DR : I talked about how xG has had a negative impact on my life, and that they need to fix how they promote people. Rather than promote people they like, promote people who deserve it due to activity/maturity. Not because you guys think alike.

 

 

Best regards, Charles.

[Aegean 849]

Well this is obviously a shitty situation, I didn't know how you were 2013-late 2016 but I do agree that it'll be best if you leave if that's how you feel.

 

I will just explain why it's easier for a person to get mod if they are friends with staff and active on TS than otherwise. The staff knows the member much more, and as such, it's easier to tell if he's active, interested in being staff, and if he is (or seems) capable. That's why we have mod apps as well, and why we always ask for the community input. It is also why it takes multiple staff behind the scenes to promote/demote someone. Regardless, stuff like this is completely common in any gaming community that doesn't have 24/7 populated servers with staff that are on 24/7. Also compared to a workplace where you work 9-5, in a gaming server it's very common to make friends with staff who are generally the most active and most well known.

 

Regardless, I wish you the best of luck, thanks for all the maps you have ported for us, and regardless of you leaving xG that you at least stay in touch with the friends you made once in a while.

[Chrono 372]

Cya in the nightmare fam. stay trill

[Owl 192]

even avoids xG membership LUL

[MinerTeddy 46]

I was friends with Darkwolf hmu w/ DM thx