ProjectXenome

Just was in a bad mood from a bunch of things that happened and just an overal depressed state I'm in almost constantly. I sometimes get into a more self distructive mind set and end up pushing away people I like or things I do. I've got quite a few problems.

I think the built in Windows Defender is good enough if you're smart about what you're doing on the internet.

I think the built in Windows Defender is good enough if you're smart about what you're doing on the internet.

That's sorta a superficial way to look at it. There's context to these things written. Is anything said not allowed as it won't be examined or considered over any other circumstance?

No, you are, you wouldn't have brought it up if you weren't.
Good, but you shouldn't ever say something as stupid as "GET GOOD / GET LMAOBOX" on our servers. Literally just promoting hacks, even if you're joking.

Just a quick poke before anything here spirals more than it has, do try to keep things civil and be respectful of others statements. Anything negative here should be made as ways to improve on and everyone is entitled to their own viewpoint. Needlessly aggressive back and forth isn't going to help anyone.

What is there to be explained? They're messages sent during specific circumstances spaced out pretty far away from each other. I don't even remember when it was sent but it was never to insult or be toxic, it's just dumb memes that I've heard from almost everyone and almost never was a problem. I was just trying to be funny. If I'm expected to hold a higher responsibility in how I talk on both voice and text chat then I will do it. Saying dumb stuff just something I do a lot of the time, kinda to cope with that I'm pretty much socially retarded.
But I also want you to explain why you decided to put a bunch of negative emotes on my posts. Is it to lower my forum reputation? You put a "Are you insane?!" emote over my reply regarding the death of A XenoGamers member. I found that extremely disrespectful and I was genuinely mourning the death of someone who despite I never got to know; who was so close to the community I interact with. Death in general just depresses me.

I'm not triggered. I know I should be responsible over what I message and I acknowledge that multiple times. I just feel like your timing with the emotes was weird.

What is there to be explained? They're messages sent during specific circumstances spaced out pretty far away from each other. I don't even remember when it was sent but it was never to insult or be toxic, it's just dumb memes that I've heard from almost everyone and almost never was a problem. I was just trying to be funny. If I'm expected to hold a higher responsibility in how I talk on both voice and text chat then I will do it. Saying dumb stuff just something I do a lot of the time, kinda to cope with that I'm pretty much socially retarded.
But I also want you to explain why you decided to put a bunch of negative emotes on my posts. Is it to lower my forum reputation? You put a "Are you insane?!" emote over my reply regarding the death of A XenoGamers member. I found that extremely disrespectful and I was genuinely mourning the death of someone who despite I never got to know; who was so close to the community I interact with. Death in general just depresses me.

I was thinking about changing Xenome, I made a previous post about it. I asked a friend about it and he actually drawn me a reference for a new design for Xenome. I wondered what you guys think. I will try to replicate this the best I can.
 

I know, sorry. It was ment to be more general. I figured you might have not been in the surf. Sorry.

I know, sorry. It was ment to be more general. I figured you might have not been in the surf. Sorry.

I was thinking about changing Xenome, I made a previous post about it. I asked a friend about it and he actually drawn me a reference for a new design for Xenome. I wondered what you guys think. I will try to replicate this the best I can.
 

Was he someone who played on the surf server? That's sad to hear.

No no, that's not what I meant when I said I haven't seen you in-game. The real reason I haven't seen you is because I rarely ever go on the surf server. Like @Kypari said, your activity is fine ?

Peak human perfection.

It is a pretty fun hobby, charcoal is better because it taste alot more authentic plus its fun to build a fire to get it all going.

I was thinking about changing Xenome, I made a previous post about it. I asked a friend about it and he actually drawn me a reference for a new design for Xenome. I wondered what you guys think. I will try to replicate this the best I can.
 

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Team Fortress 2 In-Game Name
ProjectXenome Identity
STEAM_0:1:60378751 Position
Moderator Time Active on Servers
229 Hours Information
Hello.
I've spent a considerable amount of time on the tf2 servers, the surf server more specifically. I've had many good experiences and had met so many amazing people on the server who I enjoy talking to outside of it. The XenoGamers community has been something I really enjoyed being a part of and what I really want is for it to continue to prosper and grow bigger. Communities like XenoGamers helps Team Fortress 2 stay alive and I respect everyone who puts the time into working towards maintaining and helping this community. For a while now I've been wanting to help be one of those people who work towards making the community a pleasant place to be within and I feel now is the time I try to become a more integrated part of this community as well as work towards helping the community even more just like I wanted to back in my early days within the server.
As a part of the staff within this community I vow to take full responsibility of all duties and promise to continue to both have fun and work hard within the community.
As for some of my advantages and disadvantages; I'm quite active on the server. TF2 and the XenoGamers Surf specifically has consumed so much of my time in the last few months. I log plenty of hours within the server and even in the late of night. It's both bad and good for the reasons you can probably assume. TF2 takes up so much of my time that there might be points of inactivity due to either lack of interest or me prying myself away from the game to actually do something else. I want to try and moderate my time on the server and with video games as well since so much of my time is spent on it that I kinda push away other things such as my art. I'm also kinda immature at least on mic. I tend to say a lot of stupid things on mic, not particularly harmful things but things that doesn't really present me as formal and it could lead to miscommunication with other players and other staff as it has in a couple small circumstances.
However I constantly try to improve myself and I'm trying hard already to help tone myself down on mic and work on present myself on mic. I'm willing for change and I will conform to any ruling or changes that may happen, I'm not too ridged so if there's any advice or things I should change then I will do it. Another thing about me is that I kinda don't take things too seriously which is both good and bad. Certain things like disrespect or toxicity are things I usually laugh off and I sometimes forget that others will take things like that a lot worse than I would. But this is also a good thing because I'm not too prone too toxicity or becoming angry over other's actions which will help in defusing certain situations as well as staying calm under pressure.
Anyways, this is all I have to write for now. Thank you all for reading I hope you please consider me. Even if I'm not accepted, I still plan to stay in the server and help the community in my own ways. I wish you all a pleasant day.
-Xenome

It's an old feature. Years ago during halloween events, you could find items on halloween maps. These items were spells that you could apply to weapons. Spells that were not applied to weapons/cosmetics were eventually removed by valve, so now only spelled items or cosmetics exist. 
There are a few different kinds of spells, they only work during full moon or halloween event or on servers that have halloween mode on (like xG servers):
1) Footprint spells (fire-looking footprints of various colors)
2) "Paint" spells (will slowly cycle though a range of colors)
4) Voice spells (change the pitch of your in-game voice to be deeper, things like "MEDIC!" or "Help me!")
3) Weapon effect spells (only three kinds, Exorcism [ghosts appear on player you kill] and pumpkin bombs [explosives blow up like pumpkins and have purple smoke trails], Halloween Fire [Flamethrowers have green flames])
 
Read more about them here: https://wiki.teamfortress.com/wiki/Halloween_Spells

I never known you too much or seen you much but I hope whatever you decide from this point on works out.

Ehh, idk. This xenome looks too shy and down in the dumps. You dont want you're OC to define you as sad, because often it should represent what you strive to be.

I was thinking about changing Xenome, I made a previous post about it. I asked a friend about it and he actually drawn me a reference for a new design for Xenome. I wondered what you guys think. I will try to replicate this the best I can.
 

Me and my gf At pride yesterday!

I remember on ps3 I built a huge glass sky dome to protect me from that gross red stuff that spread across the world