shwash

if you haven't gotten blackout drunk at least once before you're 21 you haven't really lived

No mention for me? I am sad now.
You have done plenty for the TF2 division. We must now establish the Jet Force Gemini division.

Hello everyone. 
So I'm sure that some of you are aware of my dip in activity recently. Well, I wouldn't say it's a dip, it's been on a slow decline for the past few months. I feel like I owe a bit of an explanation to those who've been wondering where I've been. Prepare yourselves, this is gonna be a long (and a bit ranty) one. However beforehand, I should give a small disclaimer: this is not meant to start drama with anyone, so please don't bring that shit here. Thanks.
First and foremost, if I'm being completely honest, I can't stand Team Fortress 2 anymore. I started to get bored of the game all the way back in August, and had a little dip in activity then as well, which resulted in a warning from Seg. I've tried so many things to keep the game fresh for me, but guys, there's only so much I can do. The game is so old at this point, and there's hardly ever any new content in the game. If there is, it's all just cosmetic. We haven't had a major gameplay update since the dumpster fire that was the Pyro Update a while back. And while yes, xG has a lot of fun community maps to enjoy, most of the time, you'll just be playing on the same 4 or 5 maps, with an occasional unpopular map in the mix. That's because I'd say about 70% of the maps on TGH and 50% of the maps on Surf are complete garbage, and can kill the server if we go to the wrong ones.
But even if you get rid of those maps, the best/most popular maps still get boring quickly because they're so overplayed. I've also come to the realization that I can't stand Surfing. Some of you may have already noticed, but I now only come on Surf if TGH is dead (which actually happens quite often nowadays) because I actually despise surfing. Just my opinion, it is the opposite of fun. All of this together has made TF2 almost a chore for me to play nowadays. I feel like my eyes are constantly watching the clock, waiting to see when I hit the one hour mark so I can stop playing TF2 and do something I actually enjoy.
Another reason I haven't been coming on as often is because (gasp, could it be the dreaded word??) drama. XG has always been a clan filled with its fair share of controversy and shit talking and all that, that's nothing new. I knew that coming in to xG, but I made myself swear that I would try not to get involved in it or cause any myself. Unfortunately, that's not always how it works, and more often than not, it found me. That's not to say I didn't always deserve it, I realize I've made some foolish choices over the years. But the point is that I've ended up in the crossfire of several disputes and controversies, and it's starting to get very, very, very old. I didn't want to let it get to me, but honestly it's so frustrating and my patience has run out with it. Just when it seems like one thing has finally died down, a new controversy suddenly flares up to take its place, and it starts all over again. 
Perhaps the thing I despise the most about this clan is (oh boy RANT TIME!!!) group drama. It's always been a thing, and while it has died down recently, I still believe it's a problem. Look, I get it, in life, there will always be cliques, and there will always be people who don't see eye to eye, that's fine. But I think most of it is just so fucking petty and easily avoidable. It's always two groups at cold war with each other until one person does something to a person in the other group or someone in a group gets in trouble on servers, and then suddenly, everyone has to take a side. Then you're either a "gay furry pedophile who kisses up to staff" or a "tryhard troll who doesn't like furries but plays here anyways for some reason" or some other dumb bullshit like that. It's even worse for me because I'm a mediator, so I always have friends on both sides, most of which who can't stand each other and talk mad shit behind each others backs. Most of you in this clan are over the age of 14, shape up and fucking act like it. This isn't middle school, if you don't like someone, be the better person and avoid them. Again, I don't care if you disagree with/dislike a certain person or group of people, that's fine. But you don't need to always be talking shit or picking fights or dumb shit like that. And I'm not aiming this at any one group, every group that I've been a part of has had people who do shit like this. I see not only our staff, but sometimes even our higherups doing this, like come on, grow up. 
*S i g h* I apologize, but I've wanted to say that for a lonnnnnnng time. These days, I've been finding myself losing sleep at night, thinking about what I'm going to do with xG. I fear losing all the friends I've made here, and worrying about how getting a second job will further affect my playtime. I kept telling myself that I can't leave, or I'll lose everything I've worked for here. But then every time I tell myself that I'm gonna be more active and work harder, a week later, my activity starts to dip again and my interest in the game falters. How long until I don't have any more chances to improve my activity? How long until I just become known as another one of the Admins who got demoted for inactivity? Why should I keep holding this staff slot when there are probably players who are far more active and far more deserving of it than me? I figure... maybe it's just best that I bite the bullet. It pains me to say it, really it does, but maybe it's just time for me to move on.
I think I'm going to step down, and take a break from TF2 for a while. I'm not going to quit it forever, nor am I never going to come back to xG, but for now, I need a break. I just have too much on my mind right now, since I am turning 21 soon and I need to be looking towards the future. I want to be spending what free time I have left doing things that make me happy, and make me feel good, and TF2 just doesn't do either of those things for me anymore. I'm sorry to everyone I'm disappointing by making this, but I think it's for the best.
I don't wanna end this on a negative note though. Over the last couple years I've spent here in xG, I've had some great laughs, and made a lot of greater friends. I've learned a few things and learned to improve not only as a staff member, but as a person too. And so I'd like to take some time to thank those of you who made my time here so enjoyable.
To Krampus: Thank you for always being a great friend. I don't care about what anyone else says about you, you've always been good to me and I thank you for that. I hope everything works out well for you and Grape. ?
To Semper: I'm glad I got to meet you and become friends with you, you're really funny and sweet. I would give you all of my tendies if I could. ? 
To Nutty: Thank you for being a chill DL and a good friend. Tell Pichu I said hi. ? 
To Kypari: Thank you for helping me improve when I faltered. I do hope things get better for you, and I hope we can talk again sometime soon. I wish the best for you and your brother :3
To Tekage: helo
To Elcark: I don't know if you'll ever see this, but thank you for getting me back into xG. I never would have gotten back into the game had it not been for your kindness and friendliness. I wouldn't have met anyone here I know today without you. Thank you.
To Seg: Thanks for being so chill and friendly. I hope you only continue to improve as a DL. ? 
To Caleb: I'm not sure why, but honestly I was super afraid of you when I first became a staff member. Maybe it was a rumor I heard, but anyways, I'm glad we met. You are a really funny guy and I believe you can change xG for the better. ? 
To Bonfire: Okay it might seem weird for me to mention you here since we aren't really that close but when I first came to xG, I kinda looked up to you and saw you as a good staff member. I wanted to be in your position someday. Thank you for being an inspiration. (also everyone stop calling him gay bonfire gaming or i bite grrr)
To Hyper Wolf: Thanks for being a cool dudebro, best of luck to you :3
To everyone else that I couldn't name because this post is long enough already: Thank you all for all of the great times you've given me. My time here at xG has had its ups and downs, but for the most part, I really did enjoy my time here. I wish the best for all of you, and I hope we can all still be friends after I leave. May we meet again, either in discord playing games together, or in xG if I ever decide to come and visit again. 
Peace out. ✌️
-Precious.

Juggling multiple things at once can be incredibly stressful, and that stress can take on toll on a person. As much as we disagree, anyone can tell you care a hell of a lot about this community, and dedication like that deserves respect. Take all the time you need, we'll be waiting for you.

remove it
it's shit

If you have ever liked this map unironically or ironically you deserve the fucking chair +1

Ok...
First and foremost, the answer is yes.
The only reason this map has stayed is due to the following things.
A lot of people in xG are sniper mains, this is mostly because most video games maps aren't designed with a headhunting Australian assassin killing people. If any of you have played Goldenrod on Pokemon trade, you know what I mean. Because of this, some people love these maps. Despite the fact that they make people want to gamer shot themselves. A lot of people have a philosophy of, "The more maps the better, if people vote to play on it, they can." While if everybody took voting extremely seriously, I'd agree, unfortunately many people nominate and vote for it as a joke. Not only that, but unaware new players will see delfino, and want to play on it. Moving into the bad points:
Unlike maps like bunker, it's not even a "so bad it's good" kinda deal, it's just bad and not fun. Decreases server population. With spawn protection in it's current state (protection isn't visible), it's annoying to fight people. Lastly, my best point, I don't like it. I'm honestly confused as to how people could say no. Vote yes, please and thank you.

Bunker is pretty much it for me there are a couple more that i cant tolerate but I cant seem to remember their names

hmm, maps like echidna shrine or mariokart make me decide to leave usually.
Shoutout to airstrip too, it is a hallway @shwash.

I have been working 70 hours a week due split between two jobs, and this has shown no signs of slowing down at all. I also feel the need to apologize for my lack of activity as well. I take great pride in my work ethic, but the display I have shown to all of you is shameful on my part. Any job, volunteer position, or commitment is a promise, and I have demonstrated poor integrity in that regard to all of the staff members, so I apologize.

I have been working 70 hours a week due split between two jobs, and this has shown no signs of slowing down at all. I also feel the need to apologize for my lack of activity as well. I take great pride in my work ethic, but the display I have shown to all of you is shameful on my part. Any job, volunteer position, or commitment is a promise, and I have demonstrated poor integrity in that regard to all of the staff members, so I apologize.

I have been working 70 hours a week due split between two jobs, and this has shown no signs of slowing down at all. I also feel the need to apologize for my lack of activity as well. I take great pride in my work ethic, but the display I have shown to all of you is shameful on my part. Any job, volunteer position, or commitment is a promise, and I have demonstrated poor integrity in that regard to all of the staff members, so I apologize.

I have been working 70 hours a week due split between two jobs, and this has shown no signs of slowing down at all. I also feel the need to apologize for my lack of activity as well. I take great pride in my work ethic, but the display I have shown to all of you is shameful on my part. Any job, volunteer position, or commitment is a promise, and I have demonstrated poor integrity in that regard to all of the staff members, so I apologize.

I have been working 70 hours a week due split between two jobs, and this has shown no signs of slowing down at all. I also feel the need to apologize for my lack of activity as well. I take great pride in my work ethic, but the display I have shown to all of you is shameful on my part. Any job, volunteer position, or commitment is a promise, and I have demonstrated poor integrity in that regard to all of the staff members, so I apologize.

: (

Never met you but I hope everything works out. You go make some bread and we will hopefully see you again.

Take care of yourself my dude. You have nothing to apologise for, life hit you like a truck in the past while and it's been out of your control. We all have your back, thick and thin.

You will be missed, no doubts about that. You better at least keep in touch or I will kick your ass.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Also I'M DRIVIN OVA 'ERE!

I have been working 70 hours a week due split between two jobs, and this has shown no signs of slowing down at all. I also feel the need to apologize for my lack of activity as well. I take great pride in my work ethic, but the display I have shown to all of you is shameful on my part. Any job, volunteer position, or commitment is a promise, and I have demonstrated poor integrity in that regard to all of the staff members, so I apologize.

I did a thing

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Enjoyable to do but not to be on the receiving end

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I want to be more involved in xG.

The good old days where you get permed for saying "kys". Let's also not forget how if you said "perm me no balls" you'd get permed instantly. God, I miss it.

As a lot of you know, it was my 22nd birthday today. It feels kind of douchey to write a note in the General section of the forums, but I really need to say this, and I have no idea where else to leave a message like this.
I cannot begin to express how thankful I am about joining this clan. When I first joined Nintendo Sixty-Fortress 5 years ago, I could have never guessed the amount of genuine, authentic friendships I would develop within this time. I apologize if this whole post sounds a bit weird, but I just want to thank everyone for making xG what it is for all of these years. Here's to many more!

I would rather bring back the old friendly plugin and just get rid of RTD altogether.