Arnude

-1 from me. Your antisemitic, racist, and homophobic tendencies I believe speak enough to say -1, but due to the lack of hard evidence, I will elaborate a bit more. You have publicly said on our surf server that many of your views align with that of white power fronts in historical and modern times so that alone is enough to make me feel uncomfortable with welcoming you back. You also pioneered nicknames for individuals to loophole racial slurs and insisted on using them and encouraged others to do so, even after the warning of staff on the server.
There is also a strong point of your relationship to and involvement to an extent in an event in which certain members of the clan were greatly harassed, slandered, and doxed (the exact happenings of the event will not be brought up here, but I am confident that you are familiar with what I am referring  to). I realize to be fair, I personally have not been the most friendly towards you due to these actions, and for that I apologize, but for now I think these actions out shadow what redeeming characters you believe you have to bring to the table.

How I can call a staff member gay on TF2 and they'll agree. 

Throw some invisibility potion on me from Minecraft and walk around the neighborhood naked. They won't see it coming.

Throw some invisibility potion on me from Minecraft and walk around the neighborhood naked. They won't see it coming.

Throw some invisibility potion on me from Minecraft and walk around the neighborhood naked. They won't see it coming.

Throw some invisibility potion on me from Minecraft and walk around the neighborhood naked. They won't see it coming.

Throw some invisibility potion on me from Minecraft and walk around the neighborhood naked. They won't see it coming.

I haven't spammed forms since my first time doing it. Get some fucking evidence before pulling that shit on me. As I said I'm NOT coming back.

@Topaz use everything I said 
I said I didn't think the actual community was shitty but people in it can be.

You must wait at least a month before re applying for membership. Your last application was submitted October 2nd.
 

Hard -1 from me.
I appreciate that you're trying to change and become better, but there's more to it than just talking about trying to change.
From what I've seen you haven't, at all.
18th October:.  Context was that I was killing you when you made it to end area of some surf map, as you'd killed some of my team when there before.  Calling me a cunt isn't a reasonable response to that.
I don't have a screenshot of this, but I think it was in the same session later that I kicked you since you were shooting from the spawn (after being warned multiple times) and on rejoining you called @SegFault a prick for kicking you (1. he wasn't even the person who kicked you, and 2. it was justified, you broke the rules consistently and after being warned).
19th October with this comment out of the blue: , from what I remember you were trying to start shit for no reason.
 
I hope you do try to improve yourself, but I haven't seen evidence of that so far.

How I can call a staff member gay on TF2 and they'll agree. 

How I can call a staff member gay on TF2 and they'll agree. 

bullying people on tgh 

How I can call a staff member gay on TF2 and they'll agree. 

How I can call a staff member gay on TF2 and they'll agree. 

How I can call a staff member gay on TF2 and they'll agree. 

How I can call a staff member gay on TF2 and they'll agree. 

How I can call a staff member gay on TF2 and they'll agree. 

Other: Cunt.
I like to call him that.

Other: Cunt.
I like to call him that.

Let me start off by saying that I am by no means trying to start drama or attack anyone by making this. I am simply making this to discuss something that has been bugging me for a while now. Buckle up boys, this is gonna be a long one.
Now, with that out of the way, I'll get on with what I was going to say. In recent weeks on both the servers and forums, I've seen people making some hasty decisions in the moment out of pure anger, sorrow, or loneliness that they later on regret, and it lands them in hot water. And I'm not innocent of this. In the past, I've said and done terrible things to people I care about because I am driven in the moment by blind rage. It's how I nearly lost my friend Skelly, how I got demoted to Moderator, and how I almost got completely demoted down to Non-Member altogether. I admit that perhaps one of my greatest flaws is that I sometimes let my emotions cloud my judgement, and only realize the fault of my actions when the damage is already done. Not a day goes by when I wish I didn't take my anger out on Skelly. Not only can I never be trusted the same way again by the other staff and higherups, but I also nearly destroyed my friendship with a guy who didn't deserve what I said to him.
But could've would've should've, the past is the past and nothing can change that. All you can do now is try to improve, so that your future may be brighter. When I first got demoted, I was once again almost driven by emotion, this time sorrow, to leave xG and never come back. But I slept on it, and gave myself some time to clear my mind before making a decision. I didn't end up leaving (obviously, or I wouldn't be here writing this), instead, I did my best to make things right, both with the higher ups and my friends. Now look where I am! I'm right back where I was, and I've learned lots of great things to help me improve.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, I understand that in the moment, it's easy to let your emotions control you. Something might make you angry and you might take it out on others in xG. You might feel depressed or lonely, and feel like no one here on xG cares for you, so you leave. But believe me when I say you don't want to do that. Clear your mind, go for a walk, take a nap, get some food, listen to music, or do whatever you must to soothe yourself. It's easy to let your emotions get ahold of you, but it's difficult to come back to xG and get membership after you stomp out in blind rage. In my opinion, xG is one of the friendliest communities I've ever been a part of, and I've made so many good friends and had so much fun. Don't let your emotions ruin what you have here. If you feel lonely, I promise there is someone, somewhere on our servers that cares about you and will miss you if you go. Heck, I miss everyone who goes, even if I didn't particularly know/like them. I like to believe we have something here for everyone, and it sucks when someone leaves because they feel left out or unappreciated. 
Hehe, look at me, trying to sound all deep and smart and stuff. But I mean it, don't let your emotions control what you do. Every mistake can be fixed, every bond can be mended, and every wrong can be set right. Don't let one tiny setback drive you to destroy everything you have here on xG, or in your life, for that matter. Because no matter what you believe, we care about you, and will miss you if you go. If no one else will, then I will. That's a promise.?
-Precious

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